dizzy dreamer 〆
Monday, November 30, 2009, 1:25 PM

dont know what is your problem.
i think this really damn childish lorh . zzz
haiya, me? a fake friend.?
worst of all ?
ya la. say all you wan say.
is ..
you best la. you win la. you most...not.a.fake.friend. bahs .
dont need continue criticising or whatsoever.
sian.
you say until..
as if you are th only one who cant stand lies like that.
as if you are th only one had th feeling of being betrayed.
btw, you say. you can only trust yourself.
i think, you never really trusted anyone for real, before.
btw, if that person , you call, is your bestest friend.
you should be trusting her.
cos, a friend of mine, told me.
when you call that someone a friend, he/she is someone you can trust.
somemore, you say urs is a bestest friend.
i dont know la, if you think this sentence very crap, then up to you.
i jus stating what a good friend of mine adviced and told me.
just one day,& im already regretting what i wrote in my previous post,for th truth is. i dont want you to...let go...cos'...i cant either..

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Sunday, November 29, 2009, 4:05 PM

i wished more than anything,
to be with you .
but i know...
now at this age..
there's no way im going..to ..be..able to have th freedom to be with you .
my parents...wont approve..of any relationship..
is ..not i dont..want...
and..ask you dont smoke...
is cos..you smoking..not only affects you..but me..but...everyone around you...
you smoke..than....what if...if....really...kena..then.....
then... how ...
even you want to carry on to ...live ..with th one you treasure...then..
you...also cannot..you smoke....you're hurting...not just yourself...
there's nothing..i can do ..now ..
moreover..
ive..felt useless enough...i couldnt..even stop...you..from smoking..
i cant..do anything..
i have..no right..at all...to ask you to stay..
if you...cant stand..carrying on...this way...
i wont...ask you...to stay...
cos i know....im..being..selfish...that way..
you could have just forgotten about me long ago...
but ...yet....you...stayed..on.......
its....long.. enough...
i..understand.....
since.....you say......you find ...no point... in...continuing to ..carry on..
its...suffering...for you...too...
i caused...you...to drag....this...long enough....
im not...worthy..of you...
i dont..deserve....to...make you.....suffer...and..continue...
i never should....have...entered...your life..
i wish...we could..pull through...but....
i understand.....i should...let..you..go..
you deserve someone better...
someone....whom you can go out happily together....
without having..to worry....bout whether...there's any...risk...
that...whether..after meeting...
must..wait till how long...then can see each other again...
that....you can meet...every single day...
that...you can have th freedom to be with...
that you can really be happy together...
that..that...
you can openly be together with....
i know...i shouldnt... be holding you back...
you say....wait..till you come back s'pore...then..see how..again...
its...okay..dont have...to..
cos...i think....th only way....for you...to not....suffer anymore...
is..to forget ...bout this relationship....
to forget...bout us...
i ....wont have....th courage....to say this...to you...face to face....so...
when you see this....maybe ....you'll know....
i...i...im sorry..i couldnt ..do anything..
i wish...i could say.....to ask to meet again...if we have th fate...to see..
each other.. again..next time..next life...
but..no..i....dont..want..to...cause..you..any more...pain..
everytime...is like that....if really...forever...also this way...
then.....i dont...want..you..to be..th one..to have to suffer..again..
i..dont want...to enter...your life.. and...ruin it again..
&...i can promise you, i will treasure every single one of th memories i have with you, &..thank you..for letting us meet, for i will never regret..having known you..for...you were th one..who taught me ..what love is..=)
so..

marcus, please forget.....me.

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3:16 PM

uhm.....
today mood not so good.
whole day feel so sleepy.
waraku havent called . hais .
guess i need go taka ther de le ...
but still okay bah ..
yea..
M called, :]
but...hais.
its not that i didnt mean my words,
i wish i could. but i cant.
still. i will try..though i know..
that's not enough for you, anymore.
i wish we could be, together, openly..
but..what you told me on th phone....
hais..
ive realised, i'm..
no longer worthy of you .
im sorry.

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Saturday, November 28, 2009, 9:27 PM

hmm.. today M called again :DDDDDDDDDDDD
happy happy :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
hmm..but sadly.. end up no reception..
then he bo call liao . D:
haiya, but nevermind..
uh.. today go see jobs..
went simei tgt see see ..
then end up th job need commit 1year =.=
then...
go marina.. waraku de pasta
i fill particulars le..
but...
need wait for call then go interview..
hope they call =.="
then...
yea went to see somemore..
then went T1 ..
got job at TONKICHI .
but not station there.
will at orchard or taka or i dont know where.
now dont know which to go..
if waraku...by monday bo cor...
then i need hand in some particulars at tonkichi le..
but i do hope th waraku one will cor.. -_-"
but, if go tonkichi... got friend..
if go taka.. :]
so... ya.. hope waraku call asap! :D
haha .
th people ther very friendly.
th manager..sort of nice O.o
hmm..............
monday....mama&mei come back le ..... :]
.....................................
:)
glad you called:DDDDDDDDDDD
you said...dont want lucky...want openly....
i sort of gan dong :x
heehee .
i wish, can also...
but..
hais.. tilll now parents.. stilll...dont..approve...
dont know la,
it doesnt matter de ! .
we will pull through, im sure :D

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Friday, November 27, 2009, 8:25 PM

hmm, well .. to that friend, who gave me th advice...
ya i tried, but sorry apparently, she still not happy.
she thinks i never try, so whatever lo .
th posts, and everything. dont know bah .
as i said, to you, i know i did it out of anger.
but apparently, now.
she did not, do it out of anger,
cos when she saying all this, she is happy happy one.
means, she means every word.
to that friend, you see alr, so. ya.
as i said, there's no way i can accept th fact that everything's gonna be okay anymore.
doesnt seem like she's unhappy bout what is happening,
i guess she is happy with what's happening now.
she has called upon her friends,
to say everything to,
so i have nothing to say.
as that friend has said, to everything, there is two sides,
but as i see now,
all of which, is not anymore .
its still a lie,
there's still a mask.
she's happy im this miserable.
so, ya so it shall be .
i have only one thing to ask of those who know me,
to trust me for who they know i am .
anything else, ive got nothing to comment.
J, i know you can make one's life hell if u want to,
so if this is what's making you happy. so be it.
btw, th posts, if u want say is dedicated to you..is not exactly.
but this blog, mainly is for me say things out, to express my feelings,
whether im angry, or sad, or disappointed, or happy or whatsoever.
i only know,
i have to apologise for the words on th prev posts, they were quite mean when i saw it again.
however, if you think im saying this out to pretend or to i dont know whatever you think,
then i'll only say, i was stupid to have apologised to you,
for which, you are not worthy of my apology .
because, till now, part of me still wish everything's gona be okay.
although i know im stupid to be thinking this way .
and, yea. you're lucky to have your friends always beside you,
so maybe yea, you probably treasure them more than what i am capable of.
but stil there's one thing im pissed about,
for which.. i dont think, this is a joke .
if you think it is, i doubt our friendship meant anything to you,
cos you apparently seem happy that this is happening.
guess you are laughing at my misery now huh? .

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3:05 PM

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know how express how im feeling now hahahahhaa :D
that retarded boy called me from thailand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
so chua tio, woahhhhhhhhh :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
happyhappy :D
thank you :D you cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeered me upppppppppppppp :D
so glad to hear your voice, and know that you're okay :DDDDDDDDDD
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee :D
jus now saw th number saw chua tio...so longgggggg..haha .
but now so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D
15mins talk, is more than enough :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
happpppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D
so glad, to know, you cared :D
im so happpppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :DDDDDDDDDD
happyhappyhappyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :DDDDDDDDDD
ohmygod, i just realised how crazy i sound -_-"
but nevermind, im so happppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :DDDDDD
thank you :D
takecare hor! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i miss you :p

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Thursday, November 26, 2009, 8:36 PM

thought you say, you dont want to reply to my pathetic insulting blog ?
you did, in th end .
say i didnt get th facts right ?
please, you did enough. to mess my mind up.
still want to say until you didnt mean what you did like that.
please, you messed my mind enough to make me feel that,
you say those words, to hurt me .
agitate me .
make me feel so, unbelonging huh ?
please, i dont know what is your problem k .
you know what you doing, that's best .
good for you, if got supportive friends around you .
and btw ? sorry, i didnt say you were a fake friend.
you just did, and btw, i didnt say things behind your back.
and woah, im not like you, who go around asking people to know about what is going on
to, i dont know...
as what you said .
"cos i know more than you" ouch .
of course, you know so many things.
you are th one, that asks them.
i dont , they tell. not me .
i got call every single friend of yours meh ?
oops, i not like you, you damn lucky huh ? so many friends beside you.
not me, i dont go around asking so much.
thanks, call me no life. call me crazy
just what i need .
cos i already had my life sucked out of me, and ya i was crazy enough to bother bout this,
right, from th start .
happy huh ?
if you are so happy trying to ruin my life, go ahead .
ive had enough already, for 4 whole years.
once again, being so stupid thinking everything's gona be okay.
yet. ya realising how dumb i am, to know now. nothing's ever gona be okay again.
if those words are mean? ask yourself , how much more mean words you've said,
to me, and to others.
and let me see,
i think you are th one, who say things without getting th facts right first.
and btw, you say. you are tired?
you dont want to fight?
please, how bout me?
im so fucking tired about all these stupid things.
having to be bothered so much by you.
you still dont realise it huh ?
or maybe you do, that's why u are doing all these.
that, everytime you are fine with me.
evrything in school, with th girls.. everything's fine.
when u are not, everything goes haywire.
please, you say you dont want to fight?
how is this a fight?
last time, all i did , was be such a weak shit, keeping my mouth shut, as u do things your way.
now all i did was say out how exactly i feel.
how is that a fight?
go ahead,
you know how bad my life is already,
and you still want to ruin it,
want to make it worst,
you want to take those near to me, and everything else you can get,
go ahead, take till ive nothing left.
take till you're happy .
as you said,
you know what you're doing.
hope you're happy with your life, with what you do. and every single thing.
just dont regret,
like how i have,
of believing everything's going to be okay .
no mood.

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009, 8:19 PM

I WANT TO DIE .
I WANT TO END EVERYTHING .
I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING .
YET ..
fuck la.

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8:19 PM

uh, dont know where to start, but ya la . anyhow .
i say th okok things first.
morning go badminton.
then afternoon go jamming.
learn some drums basic.
very fun ,
ya hope can learn more.
then suppose to go out at night for movie. end up bo .
i called didi to see wan go dinner, end up never reply i dont know la .
i in a way disappointed, with th things that's going on now
dont know.ya .
next thing .
uh. ytd supposedly, everything's fine. then, for th next moment, everything's not anymore.
i dont know, i thought i didnt have to care, didnt have to bother.
didnt have to get my stupid mind to be messed up by you.
i dont know what's your problem with me ok .
4 years. i tried . no use one.
ya you hate my character is it.? you think i so easily can control it meh ?
and btw, u say so many people dislike me, and i dont get what it is ?
i dont know la .
maybe im just so stupid lo .
sorry .
i dont know la . blame my stupid character.
say until like this, i dont know la .
please lo ,
for your information. i dont need your attention for gala,
all i thought of was, just, go with it, whatever happens jiu like that lorh .
i dont know la .
please, i just tried.
i thought i could jus pretend everything's okay .
and i was jus so stupid to have believed .
in th end , everything's not okay .
i dont know la .
and please, th prev day before gala, was crap . i dont know wth was going on .
on th sms, u say till so sacarstic , purposely one right, ya i know.
i just cant stand it, so i jus attitude back abit lo .
then during gala that dinner. you sent me this sms
"ehh you reached yet ?"
then next sms .
"i dont know, i v scared to go in. how long more you need?"
so what's this ?
th night before, so attitude.
say dont know what seating arrangement.
then so attitude,
then i ask what thing,
then ya la .
you were trying to leave me out is it ?
dont worry, i get th point.
then that gala dinner.
i dont know what thing.
suddenly asking me,
wth. ya la, i know i weak la.
easy to use is it ?
u need me, so i ther lo .
is that what u think ? should be ba .
i dont know la.
then. last night,
attitude again.
u trying to agitate me isit?
then want make me jealous, trying to make me go crazy huh ?
you want see my life go more miserable isit ?
then today go badminton ? wth ? i dont know la,
u simply dont want play with me.
ya i get it .
then u knew bout jamming thing.
ya.
then, after jamming. woah, i heard so many people there with you .
woah. then dont know what bahs .
conference? to complain bout me ?
i dont know.
th feeling sucks you know ?
i guess you dont know any shit .
so ya whatever la .
i dont know why, but i did try.
and sorry , ya i know fucking well what's wrong with my bloody character.
i reminded myself about how it is.
i remind myself every fucking time.
thanks, remind me again.
im gona go crazy hating myself .
ya, im so unappreciative.?
i know that, i dont know why th fuck am i like this .
ya i so ungrateful is it ?
i dont know la,
if that's what u think, so be it.
i dont know anything anymore.
i wish i can dont care.
ya truly enough,
when i see u alone in school,
i just try to understand th situation u r in,
i just, dont want to leave anyone alone,
cos' i fucking know how it feels .
i know so god damn well .
so i jus hate it.
apparently, i made th wrong move.
how stupid of me.
4years, thinking everything willl be over,
thinking after gala, that all of us were together, everything would be fine.
now, i found out. NO .
you still want to make my life hell huh ?
i dont know what's your problem with me anymore.
cos even when i did nothing,
you still want to make my life so god damn miserable.
its so bloody hell bad enough, u want to make it worst .
even seems as though, people dear to me are always taken away from me .
what fuck ?
i dont know la .
even got ppl say i dont seem to appreciate friendship ?
please la, i know i very well do so.
so ...ya , i know you sure are badmouthing me, complaining bout me.
dont know saying what crap.
but. ya .
whatever lor .
everytime you ok with me,
its seems my life will feel everything gona be okay.
everytime u not ok with me.
my life feel like. so hell lot of shit .
dont know la .
this is so crap you know ?
4 years.
4 fucking years .
that hurt so much
that allowed you to mess with me,
mess with my mind.
mess th bloody hell load of life out of me .
i dont know .
this is seriously gonna make me so damn fucking crazy .
why should you cry thinking bout me ?
i dont know anymore ,
i really dont know .
this sucks you know ?
i wish everything's okay,
but i think, that's impossible already .
if you are so not happy with me,
dont need to go tell others .
COME STRAIGHT TO MY FACE.
SAY ALL YOU WANT TILL YOU HAPPY .
up to you .
if making my life hell is what u want ,
i got nothing to say.
all i can do is, heck . and carry on with my life .
i know, i have some bloody stupid fucked up character,
i know i tried to change .
i am stilll trying .
i wish it'd be so easy.
but its so fucking not.
so sorry .
woah. i didnt realise .
AS I WRITE THIS POST, i found out, I GOT FEVER . woah .
you totallly burned me up man ,
im at my wits already .
i think you messed enough of my life.
if you want to take away as many friends of mine,
i got nothing to say as well.
you very well want to make me end up alone, so be it.
i only know, if they are my true friends,
regardless what you say, they wont be affected .
cos i know, they will trust me .
they will be there for me, as so how much i know, that i will be there for them .
and to let this be known that,
i treasure my friendship, ALOT .
regardless what you think. that's all i can say .
so . ya go ahead bah .
i dont want to care anymore, ya in a way ,
u need me, i ther lo. dont need me, jus throw me away bah .
up to u . i dont know le.
i dont know i dont know . and i really dont feel like caring .
i wish i could, but as you say.
we are friends .
i dont know how th hell i can not care bout you .
so, i can only wish, everything's gona be okay .
ya,
in a way, i wish i can ask you to fuck off from my life.
cos i dont wan to go through th same confusion, and for my mind to be messed up .
and for my life to get worst.
but in a way, i wish all of us can be okay again .
i dont know anymore .
thanks ah, my mind's all so messed up. fuck la.
im having a bloody hell headache.
go liao .
i wished you were here. maybe this time, is not you never come back ,
and if we dont meet anymore, maybe is not you anything happen .
maybe , its me .

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009, 10:51 AM

well, suppose to blog this ytd .
end up,
nevermind.
dad super no mood .
dont know la.
i jus guai guai off th com lo .
den i go do my duties, then sleep .
well, ytd.
mum & sis go taiwan .
so ..
yeah, morning sent them off .
then ,
go back, i ask dad if can go find friend for lunch at his workplace.
dad say ok , so long i know my responsibilities .
which is, settle lunch& dinner, for my grandma .
sian .
then,
ya i settled lunch for her,
so end up late for lunch with itiel .
never meet.
then i took bus28 to bedok supposedly .
then reach ther, saw cheryl leong & D .
then . call zp, see wan go out.
cos i plan with itiel meet him for dinner .
then, zp ok .
so end up, wan watch some movie.
so i sian diao .
cos i from tamp go bedok from bedok go back pasir ris .
=.=
go ehub watch, with dickeon,dom,vernon,michael,zp.
watch RAGING PHOENIX :D
damn nice leh ,
thailand de, some fighting show .
i damn love it hahahahha .
:DDDDDDDDDD
wonder, u at ther got watch anot, since u go thailand..haha :D
hmm.. ya. then end up finish, then zp pei me go around .
go back give my grandma dinner at before 5.
den i head to city hall.
den go orchard.
go kino walk around-if only you were ther :D
then end up, i bought 2 packet durian pancake,.
wan pass one to itiel.
fuck la, den dad come scold so loud on phone .
ask me go home .
so i no choice cancel with itiel ,
sian .
SORRY DIDI! DDDDDDDDD:
next time again, i go find you ....
hmm, ya so choing home .
so dad scold, bout me giving grandma food, before 5 .
blablabla. lazy say .
then ...ya scold here n ther.
maybe he not feeling well bah.
so i jus help him,
jus let him scold.
i go wash clothes, go hang clothes, keep clothes .
den i finallly sit down use com.
awhile later KPKB .
so...
heck ,
ask me off . so i off.
i use phone
tio scold
i heck.
off loh.
i go sleep.
go inside hear ipod, play psp .
then awhile, i go sleep le .
now, today. i havent ate my breakfast..
and its....11pm...
hmm.
i think i eat brunch bahs .
ya lazy post le ,
OHYA .
psp, maybe......
i getting new memory stick. 8gb, sis' friend help me from m'sia get.
yeah .
i want FINALFANTASY DISSIDIA :DDDDDDDDDD
hmm. that's all .
guess what, i had th dream, that we will go shopping in th supermarket together..
buying some necessities..buying food..haha . so fun .
last night, i hear ipod, den scroll thru inside th photos.
next moment i cried. D:
i missyou D:
be safe ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (:

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Sunday, November 22, 2009, 10:59 AM

hmm, i will post th pictures again, first ? :D











hmm, yesterday went out with lesbiecousin :D
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!.
michelle pei me go marina haaa .
go ther learn POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL .
very fun neh.
but starting, learn th time, more steady .
after that, know abit liao. aiming become worst alamak.
but quite fun la.
suppose to play 1hr, end up overshot till 2hr.
$24 . =.=
okok la .
then....
suppose play bowling, then see not enough time. jiu never play le.
end up jus take photos then go walk around lorh :]
haha . fun laaaaaaaa, although never stay long..
reached home...around 11plus ...
then..go home, need wait for th washing machine . alamak .
after that...i jiu go sleep le. like that lorh .
now...i go put th photos there as well :D
awaiting your return :]

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Saturday, November 21, 2009, 2:38 PM





i anyhow post some photos here :]
hmm, well yesterday went for GALA DINNER :D
there's a hell lot of photos, but i lazy post here, go my facebook see , i upload all there.
i jus put some here :]
hmm, well first thing is.. i spent almost a week, to see th dresses and stuffs, so...
quite alot of things happen actually . dont wana talk bout it already . so , yeah .
uhm......been going to far east plaza alot . haha .
didnt realise bugis under renovation ...
den..
ya .
uh ..
talk bout gala .
i wore heels 2.5inches i think .
walk around, was okok la ;D
i wore black tunic dress with stud belt.
:]
hmm... went ther abit late.
reached suntec convention hall, then, saw until
wanchew, jas T , jac, bella, everard, dominic and many many .
then ya .
meet le.
den go up .
den sit down.
den alot of talks .
den sian .
den finally food come.
wanchew most happy haha .
then .
ya
everybody happy la .
then sit, eat .
next dish th time
we take photos.. alot la .
happy everything's alright :]
ya , then....
lazy say liao la .
then.........
ya then.
finish le.
wanchew go with yasmin car.
den..
jac, bella, zp, dickeon,
dey donwan go home yet
den mama n papa n mei, out watching movie at suntec.
haha .
not in time.
so nevermind,
i suggest go suntec ther lo .
then we five walk go ther .
eventually reached th cinema .
den wait wait lo .
den papa mama come .
den go lo .
end up.
they heading home.
supposedly, could take care together, but duno ...jac n bella dunwan..
den nvm le lo .
then go back ..
ya .
den go home..
suppose to go airport drink coffee..
end up nv but, ohwell .
go home.
like that lo .
then sleep le .
NOW .
i waiting awhile.
raining though .
then going out with michelle cousin :D
going marina to play pool ?
i first timer, alamak gona b so maluuuuuuuuuuu =.=
then, yeah. anything we playing bowling ahah .
then...
ya, wanted to before that go find itiel di de! .
then he say he wan sleep.
sian .
nvm lo.
i see monday can make it anot,
den i go find him at work .
yea .
go lunch break..........hmm .
long time never see him! haha :D
uh ..
ya that's bout it.
i go get ready le ...
hmm...im missing you :D
if only you were there haha ;D
be safe (:

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 11:09 AM

hmmm ,
well today woke up . and....everything's still fine :]
hmm, talk bout ytd bahs .
well,
first, im feeling guilty .
so just want to say sorry to mum & dad , yeah .
didnt mean to break your trust, but still . ...
dont worry, i know what im doing, so should you see this blogpost,
i will still bear all th consequences :]
yeah, i met marcus yesterday :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
im happy, i fufilled th things you asked :D
met before u go overseas, went orchard, went to eat, went for movie :DDDDDDD
hmm. supposed to meet at 12pm, end up i abit late. haha sorry ! :x
well, then sat there awhile, M smoked . *hais*
then..moved off... OHYA OHYA .
i first time wear dress in front of him alamak .
i wore..on top white ,bottom blue . with black belt, plus brown bag..& red converse haha .
marcus wear, white formal top, blue jeans, levi's belt, white converse :D
haha . yeah .
at first felt weird, in th end didnt bother much alr .
sadly, didnt take until any photos .
dont know why also haiyaa . ):
but, nevermindds .
hmm.
walked to taka th seoul garden eat .:]
lol, at th start, marcus cook on th pan, those meat. he cook until more cooked then mine.
mine, he say half cooked LOL .
den later awhile. is my turn cook better alr, he cook until got chao da lol ! XD
but th feeling very nice.
eat together, cook th food to eat.
hahahahahah think bout it jiu happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :DDDDDDDDD
then i see marcus eat so many potato with th mushroom sauce i think ?
dont know what sauce beige colour de :]
he liek it alot apparently heehee :]
then ya, take till 2 plates LOL!
sadly, i dont like that sort of potato . haha .
then eat till, damn full le .
then never eat fruits. never eat ice cream haa .
then moved off,
he very full also.
OHYA.
got one part. go take food.
he bent down take plate.
he back pain . alamak.
lao ah gong le =xx .
joking de lahhs . hee heee .
hmm..
then like that lo .
that day he abit gong laa.
hmm. then go toilet come out then go kinokuniya awhile :]
walked around, hand was cold. so . heehee :]
thank you, M :D i did feel warmer :]
then, he go see his books by Darren Shan . i think.
den i go see some vampire books .
then next moment i turn, chua tio he behind haha :D
happyhappy .:D
then, we head to see jap stuffs,
he see jrock th magazine, i go see animae,&comic books :]
skyoflove, haah sad, he didnt have interest to see ? )))))):
but ohwell, he still lvoe his that boxing animae, cos got girls w big neh =x
ahhhahahahah =x
then.
headed to orchard cineleisure .
go see 2012 th timing.
took th 4pm show.
we both too full, never buy anything, ahha .
den got some time,
so go walk .
walk tilll got some christmas decorations .
haha .
wanted to see th bottom, but i too short, cant see alamak .
kena suan by M . haa .
then...
he touched some christmas th ' balls ' then he said something..
wth, dont want continue bout that , ohman ._.
SKIPSKIP .
then 4pm sharp, we head in to sit in cinema .
:]
while waiting. sit ther do nothing lorh .
th starting still thought really end up nobody come sit beside us.
haha .
eventually th show start awhile, den got people le la .
well, before that .
got lie on his shoulder awhile haha . :)
then..show start ...
then watch..
yeah :]
everything was fine.
th show's nice :]
in some way, quite influential alamak =.=
then. watch got one part , mama sms .
then is bout me not lying and stuffs.
hais, dont know la .
then jus worried,
so helf on to marcus , lie on his shoulder and watch lo .
:]
got one part, he held my hand haha :]
thanks you , M :]
then...
eventually th show end....
haiya .
went to toilet,...
den he end up take longer,
cos he plucked out something from his hand =.=
part of it my fault, i think i scratched until it, den th whole thingy came off...D:
sorry D;
haiyaa .
then... was deciding on whether to go dinner with him or not.
cos i had th choice
but there's still a risk,
if i stayed longer.
was already stuttering at what to say to my mum on th sms.
got slight contradictions .
then .
eventually thought M go eat w his friends, so we end up head home.
at th mrt,
my side one, came first .
i didnt go.
his came,
didnt go.
mine came again .
didnt go.
wanted to ...ya give proper goodbye,
but didnt. hais.
eventually both of us th mrt come same time,
so we both went in ,
yep .
then was asking him to smile, he didnt get th msg llol .
but nevermindd.
in th cinema saw enough of his silly smiles :D
yeah , :D
then head home.
hais he end up so sian diao .
i guess he's so disappointed in me...
end up he nv eat hais.
my fault.
then ...
at bus stop, i call him, he also..
so sian ..
hais.
"forever like this" .
hais ,
neveerminddd, i tried to stay positive though ,
told him everything's gona be fine :]
yep.
then head home le .
everything was fine :]
i played ' xiang qi ' with daddy .
was one step slower than him! .so lost haha .
den watch a dvd, G.I Joe, wow not bad siol :D
hmm.
den, ya so far thing's been fine :] i think thursday i going out to shop for dress, clutch &heels :D
then ya . that's bout it.
sms-ed you at night, u didnt seem so happy though ...quite sad..
hais, but nevermindds, just wana let you know everything's fine :D
saw some blogs & stuffs today :D
saw your blog, th prev posts and some more..
didnt know, you awaited US . so much .
yeah .
thank you .
that still gave me strength to go on.
haha ive been wondering..
how can i ever forget you . haa .
doubt will also .
cos i think if i forget you, i will really cry .
haa . weird huh ?
but in any case,
thank you marcus :D
stay happy, :D
be mroe positive abit laaa,
i trying also..
haha .
life's short LOL .
then. ya. enjoy ur trip,! be back safely .:DDDDDDDDDD
we WILL meet again, i promise .
i jus dont know when .:]
i promise, we willl meet again someday . even not in this life, next life . :D
openly :D
remember to keep that silly smile of yours! :D
thursday i think going out with jac&cheryl to buy dress :D
last day alr .
friday gala dinner...:]&th day M go overseas... ):
then next monday, mum&sis go overseas. till th following monday .
sad, something i didnt say ..hmm.really sad, that th timing my mum overseas..
u still will be overseas..wasted chances .. ):
but nevermind la! wait for you come back! :D
hope everything goes well :D

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Monday, November 16, 2009, 9:44 PM

hmm..
today went to marina barrage with girlfriends!
LEONG, BELLA, JAC, JAS.T, CHEW :D &me&me ! :D
hmm..very fun hahas.
well, went there for a picnic!.
i brought, sushi :D
there were fruits, cheeeeeeeeseBALLS LOL.
hmm, still got sandwich! :D
still got....cookies
haha.
hmm, still got chips that we didnt get to eat.
haha
hmm..go there take picture, sit down enjoy food..
haha, quite fun! ohya.
got one part a grape was thrown into wanchew's eh-hem !!! hahahah .
she had quite a hard time taking out th grape LOL .
den next was isabel kena XD
den...jasmine tan hahaha .
actually that day so chua tio wanchew wear quite low haha .
well...yeah like that lor!.
some pictures i took!
th others with jac & isabel & cheryl there.
den...
yeah th pictures :D
this one so retarded! (below)

alamak cut off some heads =.=(below)
haha a proper picture :D jac&bella th ...... =x
hmm, yeah like that nor, ohya! got go inside to see see also. ohya ohya
we went to play at th water there LOL.
first, wanchew got wet.
LOL .
then
cheryl leong.
den jasmine tan
den isabel.
den ME . alamak .
they trick me lo!.
push till kena my whole back wet like siao. haha :D
den jacklyn never really kena lorh!! hahaha .
she most of th time taking our photos o.o
haha.
yeaaaaaaaap.
den we travel to clarke quay, COS' apparently wanchew dont even know what
and where clarke quay is. =.="
uhm..
ya, then go there, got slight drizzle..
haha.
den go walk around nor..
hmm...
nothing much.
then go liang court awhile..
den tired le.
we wait for shuttle bus.
den we dropped at tiong bahru then take mrt back home le.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
yeah .
OHYA.
still got yesterday's de!.

me &mic, we went to ion orchard to meet.
den we ate some crepe :D
very nice!!.
its mushroom and cheeeeeeeeeeeeese LOL .
but quite oily haha .
then. we got a fruit juice !
th menu very cute LOL .
then........
ya we decided to watch late night movie.
so before that we shopped at ion awhile,
den mic not so used to it.
so we headed to far east plaza, AGAIN .
haha .
shopshopshop till wan die alamak .
we finding informal dresses haha .
at there saw til leo & D . den ..saw jasmine lee also haha .
i like her style...LOL .
hmm .
then.
we shop until 7pm .
den we see th timing, cannot make it in time.
den continue shop lo .
shop till 9.15pm .
we left one movie timing to watch at vivo.
den we chiong like some crap , heng reach there in time .
den we 10mins into th show le.
heng is jus advertisement.
den catch... JENNIFER'S BODY.
finally watched my first NC16 show LOL .
i feel so lag behind lol .
den ya th show...
certain parts...
haha .
but overall th show's great :D
then...
yeah after th show around 11pm le.
me n mic chiong like some siaokia this time to catch th last train .
heng ahhhhhhh , in time loooo .
den i panting like some idiot .
uhm..
den ya change train in time for th last trains...
den i go take bus 291 .
heng also managed to catch th last bus ahha .
damn tiring, but, good experience haha :D
go home, she tio scold by mama. alamak .
den..papa came fetch me at bus stop...
haha .
his eyes sososososososo red ):
i feel so bad, haiyaaa . D:
sorry daddy D:
kelian him, wait for me come home ...den he so tired already D:
sorry sorry! :'(
uhm......
den ya reach home, bathe den wait hair dry loh .
saw some national geographic show on air crash .
wth =_="
then, watch some interior designing show on ch 16 haha .
quite interesting :DDDDD
hmmmm ..
yeah . that's about it.
i wonder, bout tomorrow ..haha .
been having a great holiday ...fun yet tiring. :]
i wonder...
im gona pray ...
:]
hmm, not gona use my friends.
yeah just, myself.
i dont want to break my promise, so yeah.
we'll meet then. hopefuly can enjoy hahah :D
been really happy talking to you and stuffs everyday .
haha :D
yeah, tomorrow...
hmm....
looking forward to it.
hope we wont be disappointed or anything.
hopefully everything goes well :D
happyhappy :D
and still,
dont be silly k? you're not gonna die jus like that :]

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Saturday, November 14, 2009, 8:55 PM

hahhaa, suddenly want post another thing! .
hahaha just saw itiel di de blog...
though th post quite long ago ...
hahah .
dont know why, but just want to say sorry .. D:
dont know la, but truly i miss you too ahha! :D
enjoy ur work ehh ? =x
call you out soon :D

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8:25 PM

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
hahahahahaha .
still so happyyyyyyyy :D
hahaha .
since ytd.... :D
hahaha .
hmm.. i talked to jacklyn today! she replied :D
weeeeeee .
i got mood go the gala dinner le :D
i think most likely going
just need to get a dress alamak so ma huan!
i think i need a black clutch as well :o
hmm..
ohya!
today did th vacuuming n mopping of th floor -_-
help parents...so guai horh :D
hahahahah .
hmm...
ya then just went to see facebook awhile..
hahaha saw some stuffs... :D
i totally didnt know you really await my call so long...
wahhhhhhhhhhhhh .
really very gan dong. haha .
so happpy :D
haiyaaa.
i promised will meet up with you before you go overseas...
i willl really try keep my promise.
ohmiannnnnnnnn.th promise word so big.
haha. ohwell .
im stillll so high :D
hahahahah .
and dont so silly go think until that sort of things k! .
sure everything's gonna be okay .
even if i ....hais (touch wood) break my promise,
never meet you before you go overseas...
we WILL STILLLL MEET AGAIN DE .
after u come back, we will still meet de.
dont so silly.
i willl pray nothing happen k! .
u really watch too much tv le la . hahaha .
u come home safely :D
hmm...
anyways, reallly... thanks you . hahahah .
even in my next life, i will still take th same road, i will still want to know you,
regardless of whatever i have to go through .
hahaha :]
im so glad i know YOU:DDDDDDDDDDDD

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12:41 AM

"hmmmm" a quote by someone LOL .

okok uh today went to far east plaze with JING :D
hmmm shop shop shop so long
cannot find formal dress for gala dinner
alamak .
saw so many people seh! .
joyce meinuu..
cheryl leong&isabel..
wenyu&shuxian..
caselyn,charlotte,nicole&linhui..
weiyan,jeremy,regina,kimberly..
jasminechung th group..
cherylwong th group..
i think that's all .
O.o
then shop i see a lot of informal de! wahhhhhhhhhh so nice.
but end up never buy.
i think next saturday i going with michelle buy heeeheeeeeeeeeee :D
then i wan find work.
oya JING dont worry, i willl help you de ! got meeeeeeeeeee :D
alamak i sort of too high ahhhhhhhhhha .
secret :x
ohmygawd. ok den me n jing go walk to ION . hahhaa walk around see see.
den bought a simple flats .
black de .
den..........
yeah.
forgot take pictures ohwell .
hahahaha .
BIG NEWS COMING!!
I GOT MY PHONE BACK .
SAME NUMBER.
:D
YIPPEEEEEEE:D
FREEDOM BACK AS WELL, sort of :D
then...yeah :D
hmm,
okay. i went to tampines after that meet family . go see MAC book hahahha .
ok uhm...
hahahahahahahahhah, im so happpppppyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
heeeeeeeeeeeeee .
thanks that "hmmmmmmmmmm" one :D
ahhhhhha .
i will , i will de!.
stay happy hor :D
weeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee .
thanks those who've always been there for me :D
and again, JING I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU . alamak :D
hmm.
kk then tmr then i blog again! :D
yeah so happy, cannot sleep tonight ahhhhhhhhhhaaaaa :p
here's a secret, actually not la. im so glad i met YOU :D

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