stop controlling my life. stop controlling me. stop grounding me.

started out the day badly. but had a fucking great time out. wonder if it'll end badly tonight. sigh.

i really hate this feeling of having given our all to someone,

and finding out its not worth it at all in the end.

toy camera - tilt shift effect.

had a few plans but couldnt decide which to not go. so decided to go for a little bit of everything. so i left at around 3plus i think. then met up with brian then talked through train ride till reach school then see all of the people skating. sigh i fucking miss skating. stupid way of getting injured and its like not healing lah ughh. ok nvm then left extremely early at like 6pm then went to meet sec school friend.

FINALLY wanchew agreed to meet, or like free to meet la. wtf i dont know what was the plan all. change places to meet all. then i reach and wait for like literally one hour sia. then i like thinking "woah wanchew, just to meet you need wait one hour uh.." dunno la. then like suddenly this idk who sit like near me. then i like wait an hour wait till want die alr like want cry like that like so hard to meet till my this sec school friend. then suddenly zhengping come. fuuuuarckkk he look behind me and laugh. the whole time when the "idk who" sit so near me i look at th reflection. cant see face. only hands.. phone.. bag.. slipper..shoebag all. is seriously her. walao. sad sia. like that also want play.. no funny lo. i really miss her then like that play me tsk. ok skipskipskip. then took bus to michael house there buy duck rice go his house eat. then finish they try teach me majong all. then play monopoly deal in the end cos never play real money. then around 9plus i left.

Cabbed to the chalet there instead cos quite late liao. then didnt eat cos i ate le. so i successfully shock morgan cos i never reply his text all day i know he pissed all then purposely disturb. so.......just nice can meet till hamdan first. tried hiding behind all but fail but nevermind. he sitting at th direction i walking just nice, he shock face. HAHAHAHHAHAA wont forget. HAHHAHAHAHAHA. ok anyway, then went in slack all. only me and another girl. th others all guys. haha feel like saying this to daddy , "EH DADDY I IN TH CHALET WITH ALL MALAY GUYS SIA." hahah stupid daddy why must u be racist. hais. ok nvm that, then.. ya they all smoke..hmm...then like around 11 like that left le. morgan followed me bus back then walk till tamp mart then he meet his friends i think bring them go his chalet. so ya headed home then ya thats all.

okay so....decided to meet itiel early today, waited at th bus stop and sweat like idiot cos i stupidly wear all black on sucha fucking hot weather and this stupid guy know i wear all black and complain warm still copy me wear black with black hoodie over somemore. hahahahhaa. ok then so...both of our voices were like low like that. hahhaa k then.. ya he decided to bring me to nex.. since ive not been there before, unlike him. end up. its like he also never been there before like that haha. so. we go in, got yoshinoya there. at first suggested eat there. then he say go look around. then i say. that i got a feeling will end up back here to eat. so end up walk around and back like 3 times. really eat yoshinoya. lol. stupid beef and egg in so small portion plus miso soup and sprite cost me $10.60. but still, i love the beeeeef. yumyum shit im craving for it now. ok anyway..then went up to see tix for movies la. wanted diary of a wimpy kid. then timing cannot cos i needa be back by 6.30 for dinner at home. then like watched "hop" is like at first thought gonna be..like too kiddy . but turned out pretty nice show la. the cartoon characters cute plus story base.. then got like mix real life all la. so okok la. eeaster bunnyy. lol. the part with th sweets and chocs factory. soooooo nice. dayum. ok then.. ya buy already then went to walk around. go supermarket buy tidbits all. then walk around th place. then watch movie and back walk finish th whole place. alot alot alot alot of choices of food places. alot of restaurants and cafes all. hmm. then after that bused back ah. hahaha long ride. sleepy ride and reaaaaly coldddd ride. hahaha. but enjoyable still. :) thanks for bringing me there! although have to reaaaly admit u no sense of direction and most definitely pa jiao la hahhaha.

so...first thing in the morning kena fool by Nora. this girl uh really worried brian and I. posted on twitter that she kena scraped by motorcycle then waiting for ambulance. then i worry go call her, then worry go text brian too. lol end up she is bathing haiyoh. ok then we suppose meet 12pm at somerset together with marcuskee. then like end up 3 of us late. so asked marcus buy tix for us first. suckerpunch. brian and i wanted to watch this movie like week back then was like such a disappointment. should have listened to alicia, sigh. really no link sia. somemore marcus didnt ask for student price.. it was a $9.50 ticket D: ok nvm that. then we had pontian noodles for lunch. it was really nice. sorry la damn slow, today then tried th noodles. hmm. after that.. walk around then tried but failed to help nora with fitting the ball onto the ring for her septum piercing. and even wasted one. so she total went there thrice D: sorry nora!. ok then...brian went to skateshop...then....like marcus left to skate at idk somerset/scape. then we slack outside cine for awhile. suddenly got this idk what group from fm98 ? or was it fm987. ok whichever ask us take photo all. like damn random. k then..awhile we left and headed to school via mrt. then they skated all.. had salmon omelette rice for dinner. yumyum. then.. yea went back watch them skate. didnt take much photos today. feel tired and irritated with my ankle. sigh. my ankle the muscle or whatever ligament tear got so serious meh.. sigh really worrying . the swollen part of my ankle is still really obvious, when i compare with my other leg.. sigh. pray it gets well soon! i wanna skate! i wanna go out without it hurting after walking just for awhile. tsk, so many plans next week!. hope all goes well!. dear ankle pleaseee do recover fully and well asap.

something she said today did hit me. right on. but no matter how, i guess i shall not pursue further on it. wished it could be something more. but i guess we'd be better staying as we are now.