`-undestinedFATE

let my mind wander off for abit...

2012-02-24T21:53:00.004+08:00

Jirayu Laongmanee . Nicholas Hoult . Mitch Hewer

Ped (Suckseed) . Tony (Skins/X-men) . Maxxie (Skins)

k damn obvious the first one the best *-*

just wondering

2012-02-22T16:20:00.003+08:00

wonder if my parents would ever let me dye my hair.

ok i really love that look above...but it's probably too extreme if it's gonna be my first time trying -.- ok fine, actually i wont dye it that colour. or rather i confirm cannot dye my hair one...haisss.

but seriously it's damn nice!!

urrr craving for blazers now.

2012-02-21T20:39:00.004+08:00

the photo above is the only/closest photo I can find closest to the light teal blazer I saw ytd from Zara. $100++ ...The one i want is even lighter than that. sigh keep thinking of it, so shall probably get it when it's on sale?? hahaha. oh and im kinda regretting not getting the darkblue-uniform-kind-of-blazer that was like M-size and at $49 at Zara?!?!

Random thought: i think i will melt now if i see a guy i like in uniforms/working uniforms/waiter *-*

"back in Italy" - #nowplaying - Rome by Phoenix

2012-02-20T22:48:00.005+08:00

a definite must - coffee!

only two photos of us...

took us awhile to realise we were all in brown shoes!

the restaurant is really 'green' with >75% recycled materials!

skinny mushroom pizza

-well it was good except for the puree :/

best spaghetti of all times - aglio olio

-i love vongole and tuna/cherry tomato spaghetti too *-*

truffle fries

-not used to this...but i dont really fancy fried altogether so...

got this from Mandarin Gallery's Antoinette!

Macaroooooons.

-especially love the rose flavoured one *-*

its weird im not exactly into floral stuffs. But i love floral tea and floral sugar treats hehehe. errrr anyway was out with C, J and Wm. Lol CJW is the same initial as a goodfriend of mine hahaha.

[ ion orchard - somerset - mandarin gallery - scape - cine - knightsbridge - paragon - scott square - fep - dfs galleria - wheelock - ion orchard ]

so we did mostly window shopping, and...it was my virgin experience walking into so many of the branded stores in singapore. definitely odd...but good cos i wouldnt have walked in otherwise.

it basically felt like we were back in italy, plus the food hahaha. even had gelato before we headed home!

V missed out though, really thought she'd be joining us for dinner :/

please do get better soon.

i hate this stage - making choices

2012-02-19T00:32:00.004+08:00

go ahead and judge me if you want.

Ive been asking myself this question everyday...

"Is it possible to 'love' two people at once?"

well i kind of watched "This is war" today...

in the show...they mentioned that you can love two people but you can only fall IN love with one.

i dont know what is my problem. i always think about this...

maybe i already have that answer in mind???

but why is it always someone i can never be with?

relieved.

2012-02-14T21:43:00.003+08:00

glad i've made it worth the one year.

hope can do well enough to pull up the gpa from first year...

but then again i wonder what's the percentafe for fyp + itp.

hmm.

dontjudgeme.

2012-02-08T21:57:00.003+08:00

urrrrrr.

okay so im pretty much very into anime ost.

well because its really..............

idk how to say lah.

i only know it makes me sooooo tempted to stay and be in Japan like forever.

k i know damn random -.-

-.-

2012-02-08T02:37:00.001+08:00

-.-

all too familiar.

2012-02-07T00:23:00.003+08:00

i wasn't expecting to see you again. but all i could think of was, was to say "hi."

then again i guess you'd probably rather me not have seen you.

i told you back then you'd prolly hate me once you've thought bout it all, didn't i?

anyway, have a good life.

uhhhhhhh.

2012-02-05T00:21:00.003+08:00

kinda craving for these two dresses for awhile now.

please god make this work (II)

2012-02-03T00:19:00.003+08:00

i just hope all these nights staying up will pay off.

please :(

like so tired after not sleeping ytd... but then again. its just another 23hours 40minutes and i can sleep all i want the next day then work again after that. c'mon please please please let me finish this up in time !!

wah -.-

2012-02-02T00:23:00.002+08:00

ok im gonna just chill for abit. suddenly chanced upon this. like whaat. too pretty already luh these two guys -.- and they look jap > korean

#nowplaying Four Seasons (Winter) - Vivaldi

2012-02-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

i think i really miss my classical piano lessons.

hmmm. so much expressed out in music... i wish i can do that like now ah and be some fucking genius, writing songs all day and earning big bucks lol.

ok who am i kidding im here as an architecture student.. with 2days to finish my 8 A1 boards.

it's like i want to do it so badly. but like after a few hours of concentrating i just.. drained myself dry and need awhile to like.. replenish that energy. but no... there's no such thing as "time for a break". it only leads to "no time for submissions." =.=

here i am blogging..........zzzz c'mon last lap of year2! next is itp then final year3 project and it goes on -.-

ehhhh. i miss volleyball and badminton sia. i want like a best friend which can accompany to play both :( ok actually have but like no time for each other or....rather ..just never meet.

k im wasting energy typing here...-.=

ugh have not been sleeping...:(

oh btw i today, quite happy eh. over a tiny little small thing hehe.

#now playing - Nice guys - Kev, Chester, Ryan

2012-01-29T21:19:00.003+08:00

suddenly thinking 'bout what my best friend from secondary school said to me.

I was asking, "Why haven't you considered being in a relationship?"

the reply was, "I'd rather not be able to feel what it's like to be happy in one, than to risk ending up feeling all this heartbreak and hurt...like I've seen how you all have been..."

hmm..I can see why you're always so 'happy-go-lucky'.

happy for you, and..

I really miss ya, hope we can meet up soon.

stop being so busy occupied with things!

#nowplaying - Beside You - Marianas Trench

2012-01-29T20:52:00.007+08:00

I wish you never gave me that chance again to think, "doesn't matter if there's a whole lot of shit happening right now, cos knowing that you're there makes it all okay. I'd just see you and it'd be all okay."

when I thought I can rely on someone just for a bit...

I realise I'm the only person I can rely on.

I've learnt it the hard way to be independent,

and you just had to break all that and make me all weak like I was before.

and I can never get angry with you for all these still.

this is honestly not something I want to feel.

it makes me completely uneasy.

I've been trying to figure out what is it that I keep feeling is missing.

I still cant. I only feel these bits of emotions here and there.

this word 'Friends'...

it's becoming more and more like a word that I'm too afraid to hear,

in both possible ways.

there's so much I'm asking from myself,

that all I'm becoming is a disappointment.

"Something IS missing. But what is it?"

you never fail to make me question myself, everyday.

2012-01-29T19:54:00.006+08:00

if I doubt the respect I have for myself, what right do I have to wish for someone else's respect for me?

just choose.

2012-01-25T03:56:00.003+08:00

you're making this hard on both sides.

if you could make a decision on this, things will be alot easier.

it's really not that complicated anymore.

i gave you my answer. i know im happy.

i still am.

but i really dont wish to know that you still havent decided after all these times.

really, i want this to be as simple as it can be.

thought things were going well,

then all of a sudden. everything got cut off?

what do you want? seriously.

its literally you building me up just to break me down.

then again i dont think this is what you're trying to do either.

in fact, i got no idea at all what you're thinking of doing now.

Rollercoaster feelings.

2012-01-19T22:35:00.002+08:00

so it was bad.. then it got better.. then its pretty good.. then slowly dropping..now abut low..mm...

i've noticed something always similar bout people of the Sagittarius sign.

but anyway i just pray for everything to go well.

"For what's worth."

what is, what isn't.

2012-01-15T00:52:00.004+08:00

lyrics from and olddddd song:

And what if I never kiss your lips again
Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace
How would I ever go on
Without you there's no place to belong

Well someday love is gonna lead you back to me
But 'til it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
Somewhere out there you thinking of me

Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
When you've been missin' somebody so long

It's just a matter of time I'm sure
But time takes time and I can't hold on
So won't you try as hard as you can
To put my broken heart together again

Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

dk why i posted that also.

but..it was a great saturday!

you think this is what i want?

2012-01-10T20:49:00.002+08:00

i really dont know what i need to/ should say.

just put it simply. everything isn't going well.

still cant get over things that i thought/ should have already been forgotten long ago.

exact same thoughts as you.

just...

so long this is what you really want.

There won't be another time.

2012-01-09T23:10:00.004+08:00

"If you keep depending on them(your parents), you'll never learn to depend on your own. And the only one person you can depend on is yourself."

Thanks man (: Great 'bak kut teh' and 'xian cai' dinner at the coffeeshop anyway hahaha. And mm..really needed to talk all these out to someone today. I'll learn to be more independent, just like you are. Your advice on 'that'...i hope i can do it this time. You did knock some sense into me though. true enough i was too stupid to have let whatever happened, happen.

...Looks like i still have to make that choice hmm? It's the only way i can keep going without feeling miserable.

12hours

2012-01-04T01:54:00.000+08:00

thank you for today.

for what's worth.

2012-01-04T01:35:00.002+08:00

those words..

i'll hold you to that.

what a "4th of January".

in fact, what a "year 2012".

to how 2011 ended,

to how 2012 started,

for everything else,

come what may,

i'd like to be happy.

please god make this work.

2012-01-02T22:58:00.001+08:00

Everyone's around, no words are coming now
And I can't find my breath.
Can we just say the rest with no sound?
And I know this isn't enough,
I still don't measure up
And Im not prepared;
Sorry is never there when you need it

And I do want you to know
I'll hold you up above everyone
And I do want you to know
I think you'd be good to me
And I'd be so good to you

I would

I thought I saw a sign somewhere between the lines
But maybe it's me; maybe I only see what I want
Or I still have your letter,
Just got caught between
Someone I just invented,
Who I really am and who I've become

And I do want you to know
I'll hold you up above everyone
And I do want you to know
I think you'd be good to me
And I'd be so good to you

Whoaa ohh...

Yeah
Yeah

I would

And now I do want you to know
I'll hold you up above everyone
And I do want you to know
I think you'd be good to me
And I'd be so good to you

I'd be good to you
I'd be good to you
I'd be good to you (I'd be so good to you)
I'd be good to you
I'd be good to you
I'd be good to you (I'd be so good to you)

stop putting these negative thoughts in your head.

2012-01-02T20:32:00.004+08:00

you are not going to leave me alone to face your death.

whatever you think is wrong with you doesn't matter.

just don't give up will you?

a new year ahead just doesn't make any difference.

2012-01-01T22:08:00.003+08:00

when will i ever learn?

the same thing happens everytime,

and i thought im already prepared for it.

i thought i'd be smart enough to avoid it.

but all i ever do every new year is to let things go Déjà vu all over again.

2012

2012-01-01T01:38:00.001+08:00

here we go again.

Agyness Deyn.

2012-01-01T00:03:00.003+08:00

VERVE のピザ

2011-12-21T11:51:00.007+08:00

i'll let the pictures speak for themselves!

すべてのためにあります。

ugh

2011-12-19T20:57:00.001+08:00

okay seriously i feel like i've reached my limits for this.

it's to the point where i'm starting to feel disgusted.

g'na do something 'bout this tomorrow.

First thing in the morning.

これらのチョコレート~

2011-12-18T14:36:00.005+08:00

ロイスのチョコレート

白い恋人

ちょうど私に少し時間を与えてください!

2011-12-17T22:14:00.004+08:00

なぜ私はいつも期待はずれの自分ですね?...

ええと...マークさんは,

安全なたびを, そして... 楽しい旅を。

あなたはあまりにも過酷です...

#nowplaying - Just A Boy - Angus & Julia Stone

2011-12-15T13:42:00.001+08:00

I bit my tongue in the awkward conversation.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
I met you once and I'd fallen for your notions.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
Do you believe that there's treasures in the ocean
Did I say I'm just a boy?

One kiss from you and I'm drunk up on your potion.
That big old smile is all you wore.
Girl you make me want to feel,
Things I've never felt before.
Girl you make me want to feel,
Did I say I'm just a boy,
Did I say I'm just a boy,
You can hold me to that.

No lonely hands grab my suitcase full of nothing
I don't know why
I don't know why
You took me in gave me something to believe in
That big old smile is all you wore
Girl you make me want to feel
Things I never felt before
Girl you make me want to feel
Did I say I'm just a boy
Did I say I'm just a boy
You can hold me to that

You were the last person i thought would do this to me

2011-12-15T13:28:00.004+08:00

I remember years agoSomeone told me I should takeCaution when it comes to loveI did, I did..
And you were strong and I was notMy illusion, my mistakeI was careless, I forgotI did
And now when all is doneThere is nothing to sayYou have gone and so effortlesslyYou have wonYou can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know nowShout it from the roof topsWrite it on the sky lineAll we had is gone now
Tell them I was happyAnd my heart is brokenAll my scars are openTell them what I hoped would beImpossible, impossibleImpossible, impossible
Falling out of love is hardFalling for betrayal is worstBroken trust and broken heartsI know, I know..
Thinking all you need is thereBuilding faith on love and wordsEmpty promises will wearI know, I know..
And now when all is goneThere is nothing to sayAnd if you're done with embarrassing meOn your own you can go ahead tell them

The Edge of Love

2011-12-07T02:18:00.006+08:00

gosh.

2011-12-04T21:13:00.003+08:00

cant believe i have to spend my holidays working on a major project submission due on 6th January.

wait that isn't a holiday, isn't it?

ah, since when does architecture students have one anyway?

no life = #lifeofanarchitecturestudent

シエルの子守唄

2011-12-04T17:50:00.001+08:00

"その時までのサヨナラ"

#randomthoughts.

2011-12-04T17:23:00.002+08:00

i think if i ever stay in Japan, i will never leave...

im fine: にんたい

2011-11-30T21:11:00.005+08:00

" Don't back a #Gemini to a corner, You won't like it. "

mmm. ive got a confession. im super afraid of dentists.

2011-11-24T21:24:00.003+08:00

mmm seriously.. i've been thinking bout getting braces since sec 3 i think. just everytime i see my teeth is like.. still okay. then just cancelled that thought. then... ive been noticing in these years. that particular ONE tooth. it seems to be pushing my front two teeth and the rest towards th right? getting abit worrying. and ive not seen the dentist for ages. seriously i think the person im most afraid to see is. a dentist. =_= my god. i should go asking bout my wisdom tooth too... and clean my teeth. mmmmm. i think my phobia came about ever since...sec 1/2? i had to pluck 3 or 4 teeth at one go. got so dizzy back home that i just fainted on the floor th moment i stepped into the house. -_- okay anyway.................really dk should or not. i dm the food lah. im super okay with clear soup and soft food. just that its gonna hurt right? this is not my worry. But.

im super worried it screws up somewhere during the idk how many years of it. need go tightening, retainers take out put in etc etc.

ok anyway i just pray hard that things will be just fine if i really do decide to get em.

*fingers crossed*

...

2011-11-23T20:13:00.001+08:00

so thats what it is still?

its always bout that...

and btw "the survey is now closed. thank you for your interest."

Fuck You lah.

人生には浮き沈みがあるものだ。

2011-11-22T21:14:00.004+08:00

どうして...

私は気持ちはもう本物だかわからない。

:'(

2011-11-21T21:45:00.003+08:00

i dont know why im tearing again :'(

i need to meet up with that someone who can make me not feel this way at all more.

no i should meet up with that someone to do work.

wait where is that someone right now?

sigh...

im feeling like crap now

and i cant do my work th whole of last week cos of the ongoing headache that wont go away.

no i dont even have the motivation to do work.

or at the least ive been planning out what i need and want to do,

but everytime i try and start i just...

idk i just cant start.

super unproductive days..

god, i want to look forward to a good weekend and be prepared for my next week, then i thinkk. its holidays. so pleeeeease i really hope i can pick myself up and push harder :(((((

i just want to do it to my best and not waste everything away :(

i cant think bout other stuffs during the holidays. i dont mind taking th whole holidays just to think bout all these.. i just dont want to waste everything ive already worked on away..

omg this feeling is horrible..

memories, memories.

2011-11-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

:'(

happy birthday, ... friend?...

2011-11-20T00:07:00.007+08:00

hmm so you're 18 now mm. so yeah guess you're ready to get a license and a car?:)

mm..its been a good one and a half year knowing you...

and of course not forgettin' the first time i saw you at the auditorium and eventually gettin' to know you and Pascal, in the same class :D

having known you... i kinda changed quite a bit. Especially on the part which...

caused you and Pascal to run into the girls' toilet, thanks :3

mm guess i can say i got frekaed out by your laughter after a few weeks of knowing you, but eventually kinda got used to it, haha.

And you've been a great friend anw ever since..

Mm guess a good and bad on to one of your character...

You're really straightforward with your words, okay, sort of.

So i kinda got "shot down" a few times by your words, but it was alright i guess?

Got to sorta know like a "real" opinion on things? mm and yeah all these times...

I pretty much think you're an asshole. But eventually gettin' to know you a littttle more,

did let me see other sides of you uh.. Hehe and you're kiiiinda caring eh..

Just in a different manner? I remember your asked me if i was dead yet, the other time just after the submission's deadline. So... yeah i swear i felt like hitting your but of course,

im more than glad that you texted. Mm so yeah oh,

and i think the happiest i've ever seen you, was when you brought us to the Luge.

Thanks for that too. Had one of the best nights ever. And mm..

Guess i miss those times too much. But ohwell,

mm anyway guess you're doing well now, so... Still,

good luck with everything. Health, studies etc etc uh.

and,

Happy Birthday to you,

have a good one and enjoy your day! :>

as expected from you now, it was just a one word reply from ya.

but guess thats more than enough now, its been all too long since ive gotten a text reply from you. so yeah :')

しつぼうする

2011-11-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

あなたは何をしたいですか？

それを停止し...

てください...

それはそんなに痛い...

私はあなたがいなくて寂しいです...

can we?

2011-11-17T16:50:00.002+08:00

mmm. if we put everything aside, of course we can.

but can we?

it hurt, that's why i left.

hmm.. have been going out to walk alone..alot.

just to think.

mm.

sudden random thoughts:

"Mei Ling and Roger".

What now? :(

2011-11-17T08:50:00.001+08:00

I got what wrong then say luh.. Why r we even communicating this... Everyday also got misunderstanding seriously feels like crap..

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"if they don't it means they dont care:)"

2011-11-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

what do you mean?

does this mean you dont care about this?..

then whats all this about...

i dont want it if its not true..if its not real...

its been so long.

2011-11-16T20:11:00.003+08:00

oops. today ...

hehe got abit paiseh,

but quite happy...

its better than nothing uh.

...

2011-11-16T13:12:00.001+08:00

Instead of thinking what a TF (true friend) wont do, why dont you think of what a TF (true friend) will do for you. ? and btw its not called emo. Its just being in deeper thoughts to think about stuffs. True enough. If either of us dont give a fuck, we'd be happier. But then again with th situation now, it'd prolly end up as just a "friendship". Im just hoping its what I think it is, that its cos both sides are trying that this is hurting.

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if you had taken notice, you would have known earlier.

2011-11-15T19:58:00.001+08:00

we talked a little more today.

ive realised so much.

2011-11-15T14:20:00.005+08:00

i miss the guy that made me tear and smile today.

simply seeing him laughing and smiling and having fun and.. being happy.

i miss being good friends so much. i miss everything we could've had,

if not for that one particular character.. and for the circle of friends.

God, why didnt this work out?

i dont know.. but this hurts. so much.

so much more.

maybe cos he was the first i knew ever since....and made me feel this way,

i miss you so much but you'll never know and you wont care anym

we wont even talk anymore cos you cant even be bothered to.

you avoid me as much as you can, i swear its killing me even more than anything else.

you must be hating on the fact on me being emo and all.

which part of "im justthinking" do you guys not understand.

why of all person, you?

who cared.

so much,

so so so much.. before..

my god.. this hurts..

48hours without sleep.

2011-11-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

this is exactly what happens during the night before submissions. confirm more than 48hours w/o sleep one. =_= anyway...i forgot to print one important plan . fuuuuu. zzz. should go all th way to print tmr not huh. hmm.

i am trying my best to cope with this.

thanks ah...

this year.. like try and avoid getting too deep with b/g-rls stuffs.

end up tio hit by friendships. like fuuuuuuu. really fuuuu.

disappointed>sad>giveup>dontwantthink>idontcare.

tsch. who am i kidding..

it takes two hands to clap. im still trying to figure out all the wrongs on my side.

i know things wont get better. kinda lost that hope already. i honestly hope you are happy.

happy with everything you've got now.

god please..i honestly hope this is th last of it.

sigh.

i really very sad siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

ok wait, actually if theres more shit to come,

god, please just make me stronger :<

3AM IN THE MORNING CADDING

2011-11-11T03:15:00.005+08:00

Listening to : The Wind Blows - AAR (Skrillex cover)

like dont have any drop..

but i think.. nice eh o.o"

omg cannot fall asleep neeed concentrate T_T

to the person who has been there for me these few weeks (II)

2011-11-10T23:18:00.004+08:00

hmm, thank you so..so much for those two long messages.

cant thank you enough for taking the time to understand that,

and im still sorry things turned out this way.

Like i already said, you Are my friend.

If you need a shoulder to lean on, im still gonna be here.

:')

k back to work. ohmaigawd 24hours 30mins to submissions. T_T

limits...

2011-11-10T20:59:00.005+08:00

it just feels like...

i need to really cry everything out.

ugh feeling like a complete idiot..

35hours 59mins to submissions.

i just need to finish everything and its prolly gonna help me get a good sleep.

need attend family stuffs again this weekend.

god please give me the strength to pull through this...

"N-n-now that that dont kill me,

Can only make me stronger."

why isnt anything getting any better?

2011-11-10T20:28:00.003+08:00

i know sounds really silly uh

but reading manga and watching anime really helps me forget all th other stuffs.

like really effectively. -_-

tho its only temporary.. ohwell.

so glad i bought the 56-books collection of Inuyasha.

worth the moneyyy.

i cant give up now.

try harder try harder try harder

2011-11-09T21:07:00.003+08:00

so all in all, what you want is still to win me, is just to be the best, or to be the better one.

am i all but such a friend to you all these while? things got so diff ever since then.

is our friendship that fragile. like all depending on our grades? :(

sad to know this is the motivation that's pushing you on.

k fuuuuuuuu. forget everything forget everything forget evrything

juzzz fuck ittt. im so glad my blog is not a public kind of blog.

ughhhh today is so.. ughhhh knnbccb la fuckkkkkkk everything.

i want restart button can not. or like refresh or like delete history button. anything also can.

feeling sick mentally. ugh

kao eh cant even do my work today. fuck lah.

ughhhhhhh.

ughhhhhhh!!!!!!!

en thfiehwgs fhkjn esfjk

ughhh waddafuckkkk zzzzzzzzzzzzz feeling like crap now.

cccccccb submission this fri why th fuck i not doing work,

best part im th reason uve got motivation to do work just to be th better one

ahhhhhhhh chhheeeeebs.

mind over body.

no wait, now is mind over.. mind? ah shit la

dk wtf i saying.

fuck la fuck la fuck la.

ugghhhhh need tahan..

Kaew & Tomo

2011-11-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

these two's mv has been cheering me up... -_-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itILqLWizCY&feature=autoplay&list=PLC4929C9EF774A2FE&lf=mh_lolz&playnext=11&shuffle=674230

to the person who has been there for me these few weeks.

2011-11-07T21:36:00.002+08:00

you've given me every reason to regret this,

but there's still that one reason that i knew that lead us to this.

thank you for giving your all,

and i'd agree with those last three posts; on me being ... 'jahat' ??? dk if thats th word.

but none of what ive said was a lie,

it's just that i realised i cant go on any further in this state im in,

sorry.

random post.

2011-11-07T20:21:00.002+08:00

FFK kinda reminds me of.. us three. -_-

i wonder if this is starting afresh.

2011-11-07T19:54:00.002+08:00

like..it's as if all ties has been cut.

or ties that needed to be cut for now..has already been cut..

hope things will work out soon.

now seems like a time where less things would be known to me.

time to focus on my own self-improvement, i guess.

nearly made a 'mistake' today tho.

till then, i hope to be a better someone.

2011-11-05T00:26:00.003+08:00

To everyone i meet, have met, will meet;

Thank you.

For everything that is happening, has happened, will happen;

in my life.

#foreverlikethis.

2011-11-03T19:02:00.004+08:00

#nowplaying

รักไม่ต้องการเวลา (OST. กวน มึน โฮ)

[mv]- เจ็บเพราะเขาเหงาเพราะเธอ Four-Mod

Four & Mod Mv รักได้รักไปแล้ว

similarly to kpop, idk what they saying but i just listen ~_~

mm..

even after so long,

even after every single 'arguments',

i still think bout it.. i just wonder if this time would be the last of it..

either way it just feels to me..like i'll always have this..'feeling'..or 'thought'..

whether as..

a crush i was so shy to be around with,

a best friend that i'd be myself with,

or ..just a friend that i'd still want to meet..

i still think bout you.

the same way ive been doing..

ever since i made my mind not to let myself have anything to do with you anymore.

haha what a big lie to myself.

you know.. its not..a.."liking you" kind of feeling ?

its..maybe not a.."missing you" kind of thing ?

just.. i cant help it,

but at times, i'd just stop..

and think back.

so much changed.

adapt. #geminis

2011-11-02T17:58:00.003+08:00

#randomthoughts (1)

idk why im suddenly thinking bout collarbones...

ok anw, mmm well right in the first place, i wasnt expecting to be having th same gems as you.

so i was thinking, if its a good thing(that we may talk) or a bad thing(that i'd be seeing you ignoring me the whole 3hours). so...didnt go that well. hmm

i honestly wonder why u have to completely ignore my texts tho.

ohwell.

apart from that.. ive got to say.

thanks to all that's happening now,

im able to realise many things.

and im glad for being who i am.

#randomthoughts. (2)

for some reason im happy with the way ive been brought up by my parents.

lovemafamily.

#randomthoughts (3)

sometimes i wonder, why got so many religions.

isnt there like, only one God..

i wonder what it'd be like if all the religions could come together and form one..

ok got abit the weird.

i swear my craving for bergedil just went from 75% to 90% :(

happy birthday to ya

2011-11-01T20:31:00.003+08:00

hmm im not exactly sure.. what's going on..between us now..

but i do miss the times when we were close and we could talk just bout anything

and hang out altogether and have so, so soo much fun together.

those days when, i'd get home everyday with a smile.

miss days in school where they were always full of laughter.

anyway, happy birthday bro.

im sure you loved the present and, prolly the awesome dinner too.

wish you the best in everything!

#sotrue.

2011-11-01T20:29:00.001+08:00

http://kentridgecommon.com/?p=13860

time is all i need, i hope.

2011-10-31T17:12:00.005+08:00

i've to admit, i honestly miss you guys, just by looking at this photos..

hmm so for everything that's happening now,

(which im not quite sure what it is either,)

mm.

i know im in a wrong too. that this friendship got to..this stage.

i should have let you know i was going to approach Mr. Y bout it,

may have saved alot of trouble if u both know i was going to take his suggestions on what to do.

i rmbr you told me " what happens in italy, stays in italy. "

not entirely true, but yeah. i didnt cross the lines though.

other stuffs..i honestly dont want to talk bout it cos. i know i didnt do anything wrong.

and i really wonder, if our friendship was this fragile, or should i say..

is this really what you mean by friends?

i hope this is the last of it,

cos im sure you've got everything you wanted.

maybe just one more right?

i know cos its the exact thing thats motivating you guys right now.

today shall be the last i speak of this matter..

if i continue,

im not being any better arent i?

"And then we realized that,

after everything else is gone,

all we have left is,

Faith, Hope, Love,

and that's more than enough. "

"Dont cry because it's over,

smile because it happened."

"Life is not what it's supposed to be.

It is what it is.

The way you cope with it,

is what makes the difference."

"I can accept failure,

everyone fails at something.

But i can't accept not trying."

"True friends ain't bout how long you've known them.

It's 'bout who stayed and never left you."

Déjà vu

2011-10-30T21:34:00.005+08:00

its okay, i know everything happens for a reason.

i'll take on whatever comes my way, and regardless what it is,

im gonna make it through.

no matter what, i'll grow stronger, (so, thank you.)

doesnt matter what you think, and what you've said,

im not gonna let myself be influenced by it.

i'll get through this.

even if im gonna be on my own,

i know im gonna be okay.

i know exactly what you wanted,

and why things are this way now.

it even led you to thinking this way about me.

so i was right, it all started after 'that', dear Queen.

even after trying so hard to think that it's not what i think it is,

i still end up finding out that, its.. what i thought it was afterall.

sometimes i wish i never have to know,

but hmm, so much for being a #gemini.

i hope this is the last of what you'd want from me.

i need to try harder than this.

2011-10-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

i remember..wm used to tell me, how i'd "lit up" whenever you're around. i guess that explains why..i've been so..."down" in class.. i cant believe how much you actually mean, to me..

today's pool game? was expecting either.."super cold, or attitude frm you, or anyhow play" well, all 3 happened. sigh. the only time we "were okay" was when we were saying goodbye.

3 big impacts today killed my mood today, again. hmm, glad however that a friend came all the way to... yeah. just hope i wont end up being a disappointment.

i just miss my ....friend..(s)..

2011-10-23T11:46:00.006+08:00

what happened to us?..

why do i have to be reminded of how close we were before..

every single day i'll have to face this. and there's nothing i can do about it..

honestly missed how we were, the friendship we had..

now.. you're treating me nothing more than a stranger.

while i watch you smiling away with..others..

and giving me a cold shoulder everytime we "talk".

i dont even wish for anything more than we were before we made that mistake,

of wanting to take that other step.

i miss you as a friend, a best friend, regardless what you took me as.

everything you said, when we were friends.. its like,

you've forgotten everything.

i cant believe how seeing all this photos actually made me tear,

and guess what, i found that i locked some old messages of yours.

how am i going to go about doing this and having to 'face' you in this manner?

i've lost the friend whom i can just call when im sad/angry, and would talk 'nonsense',

till i'd just smile, and knowing i'd be okay cos i have him.

just like how ive lost the same friend who'd offer me hugs when i need em to feel better.

and the same friend that'd always be around or texting,

to 'check that im okay', that'd ask me if he needs anything....

why have i lost you to ......

just why of all the people. why? why?

i miss you, not as anything else, but as my best friend.

one of the first two friends i made in poly..

one's no longer in the same class, and ive lost you.

if only words could easily be put into action.

2011-10-19T23:55:00.003+08:00

if i could, i'd like to let everything go.

every. single. thing.

honestly. its the worst feeling ever,

you know?

the feeling of losing a once good friend,

and having to face the person everyday..

it hurts way more than losing a boyfriend.

And i've..finally decided to admit. its impossible to suit everyone.

its either you please others, and not be happy yourself..

or please one friend, and losing the other..

when did things become this hard?

i've been asking myself all these questions every single day..

everytime i see you.. being the way we were with others..

yet giving a cold shoulder the moment we "talk"..

i dont know what to do..

why did i let that happen..

the last person i want to lose is you,

not as anything more, but

honestly as a good friend..

we were once so close...

now you're acting like we're nothing more than two strangers.

must it really be like this?..

the last thing i want now is to lose another good friend.

i think..id just be the one that suits the other person for now..

i'll just keep trying to fight that thought of it being impossible,

to suit everyone.

im sure i'll find some way..

to face everyone..

THIS IS TO YOU MARCUS

2011-10-19T23:44:00.002+08:00

honestly, its not me. its not me!

its what you want sia.?

really one moment want meet again. we did.

then next moment idk why u just lost your temper/mood or smt so easily,

i dont rmbr what it was like exactly..last time.

but i really have too many other things on my mind to go..

suit you and just forget the fact or face the fact that youre not in a good mood,

over things like this? i need..a friend now.

not someone i have to go bother or think bout any other messed up stuffs about.

you know very well whats been happening and how messed up i already am.

do you know it wasnt easy at all? that day when i did that in front of you and said,

itd be the last time we meet?

and yet i just couldnt help it and met you in the end.

please dont make this any harder. even you admit yourself,

you hope u'd find someone better. you already took that step.

so i honestly should be asking you wth are you doing?!

or do you even know what you are doing?

no matter where i go,

2011-10-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

my heart still aches looking at past photos..

times like this..

2011-10-15T01:23:00.002+08:00

like its been so long..

and i honestly.. dont know if i should be feeling this way.

i just hope whatever happens, it would be the best for us.

OH. and..awesome dinner ;) cant forget the part where the waiter repeated our orders.

machiam 2 people eating 4-5 people's share ~_~

hairstyles hairstyles hairstyles.

2011-10-13T21:34:00.004+08:00

thinking of a new hairstyle..(ignore the order of photos though)

bad thing is my hair texture cant really work with these hairstyles.. damn.

i wonder..

2011-10-13T17:04:00.004+08:00

bro, i actually miss that 'us' more than what we are now.

for ya.

2011-10-13T16:59:00.002+08:00

#Sagittarius & Gemini have a connection that is out of this world. When they fall in love there is no falling out of it.

haha i wonder if its true. but idk. the fact that we're who we are now..regardless of what happened in the past.. hmm i dont know if that means something. BUT when i asked bout you finding someone really awesome soon, u said maybe, hopefully. hahahaa THAT'S gotta mean something right? :)

our fav. phrase of all times. "Hais, forever like this."

hahaha. im hoping that whatever happens, its gonna be th best for us!

i dont know how to go about doing this.

2011-10-08T01:12:00.003+08:00

so random post. i think im not in th mood to talk bout italy trip now, but that above, was my best shot i think... hmm things are.. like up and down. for the past few days. today was pretty bad. like really down. why must it happen again? i dont get it. is this really what friends are for.? are we even considered friends, in this manner? i miss my sec school mates. everything.. was.. real. well of course i know there are some still in poly, just sigh.

i'd agree with a friend though, either way whether ure happy with that person or not..you'd still have to learn to get along with th person. :/ i wish it isnt this way...

why are there such extremes in our friendship.. like either we're having so much fun tgt or things just go haywire.. you both are great friends to me. but really.. whats with those actions and words.. i dont know what to do..

dammit i need to stop looking so much into things.

Milan,

2011-09-19T02:16:00.002+08:00

so.. im currently in Milan. using Yu Heng's laptop now. Daaamn, wish i brought my laptop/ vidette brought hers. :/ my phone cant use the fking internet. stupid settings problem. so im...
really really homesick. and im so screwed. i cant really take alot of cheese/cream. missing asian food so so so so much now. best i can get here is prolly aglio olio BUT i still havent seen any shops with that. Meals were pretty alright though, but not really eating proper food.

So...yuheng has 10 cup noodles. selling at 2euros per cup. i honestly dont mind. but this hostel has no boiled water at all. now waiting for pizzas to come and im extremely hungry. currently 8.20pm here in italy~

i miss so many people :'(

watch your step.

2011-09-09T14:13:00.004+08:00

so much for the previous post. so shall make it simple for nao! eyes hurt and idkwhy.

so yeah was at H&M with the girls ytd. wah the feeling abit weird like i was happy with them but my previous post was just....like so different..doesnt matter. so.. yeah w bought lots of stuffs! and we saw like cute tops and all uh. but idk why i couldnt find what i was looking for. had a great lunch and taking photos all was great too. really glad. :) just i dont think i can ever get that whole part i blogged previously. :/ okkkkk so yeah we went on to watch Crazy, Stupid Love. it was epic as hell and it was damn good. love the part when everything started to connect together at the backyard hahaha. so yeah. v headed home, w went off together..

then. yeah waited for Brian! lol seriously had a great time. 'nuff said :) hopefully will be able to make it back home from italy for the meetup!

and yeah randomly called itiel lastnight to ask bout smt..i believed it last night uh but after checking the net today im starting to doubt it again -_- but had a fun time chatting thought was very short. :)

k im so tired bye.

what exactly do you expect me to do?!

2011-09-09T13:38:00.004+08:00

maybe its just my overthinking? but i very much doubt its not. cos since that thing, and the evolo competition thing? it just didnt seem that real to me anymore. im just telling myself then yeah maybe im the one thats thinking too much? so probably this reason has been used so very often thats it just feels like an excuse from you all.

i dont know how many times ive said it or maybe ive not said it at all. if you see this, good. if u didnt, then yeah its just me ranting it out cos everytime im reminded of this, it just feels like shit. i absolutely hate this feeling.

all i was given was a second chance at it to make it right, and prepare it in one day. i took the risks just to finish what was needed. Even if i wasnt given that chance, i would have finished it up just in order to present to them what i wanted to. I knew very well the risks. But you want to know the truth? I dont care about my grades as much as how much i want to make sure i knew what i was presenting and saying and making sure that i get my idea across.

Why do you have to make that exaggeration on life being unfair? using examples and all. i honestly dont get why. was that a reason for the competition? even in the previous ones, when i wanted to join, u'd always say it in such a way of aiming at me how i cant cope and such all the more i shouldnt join? even when i was interested and all?

i know there's two sides to everything. so i couldnt face you three at the start when u guys joined. cos i couldnt think of a reason at all. when u had the meeting and all the last minute people going for it, i was there and u guys knew it.and to u, did u really forget? i thought u knew how much i wanted to join. i wasnt sure of the requirements and all. and when i said i couldnt get members for it, you just said "ok.." really? im sorry but all these adding up together is not helping at all.

i guess thinking positively, you guys simply forgot bout it. bout the competition you guys just worry i cant cope with schoolwork and other projects. that when u guys said i should stop emoing and thinking too much, its cos im just trying to think bout it, and that maybe i shouldnt go bothering bout everything. yeah and moreover that day when i said i thought i may have lost you guys as friends, i knew even when we started laughing and all. things isnt exactly the same anymore, isnt it? th situation just reminded me of EJ. when..u said u werent close anymore. but you guys are..idkk. but either way fuck it huh.

i guess right from primary school..to secondary school..i'll always have a really close friend that's really competitive. and i just cant seem to handle it. and things always screw up somehow cos of that..i always wonder why i hanged out with guys way more and i feel closer to them at times. it just feels like girls always have problem with me bout smt somehow. ah dont wanna think alr.

thanks to this, being th only girl.. always disturbed by guys..prolly why i became violent huh.. so different from primary school.. sigh i guess only i know who i am. so whatever u judged me as.. so be it uh. im just g;na be myself. feels more comfortable that way. this trip should help make things easier.

so.. mom told me bout how a trip with friends can totally change everything. hmm. i wonder how i actually will be like overseas, and how sharing a room with a friend will be like..worried > excited. - thanks to FD5 lol.

this post abit long uh. shall make another post now.

sigh

2011-09-07T18:00:00.003+08:00

im just sad. just really sad.

dont w'na feel this way...

ok dont judge me.

2011-09-02T23:03:00.006+08:00

Lee Taemin - Korean.

Kanata Hongo - Japanese.

Haruma Miura - Japanese

lololol.

2011-08-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

lol "Like, pls visit my blog. Thank u very much ! LOVES <3 Muackzscxzsxzsxcxzxsx watever. ".

totally lol at ur blogpost on this haha. hmmm. yeah i wasnt joking! she teared. c'mon lah. how much worst can this get? see each other also cant do anything more than just smiling at each other. heh.. haha as usual saw your shocked face. but next moment like so calm and smile then u left.

so much in one day. maybe too much.

2011-08-29T22:02:00.002+08:00

so..today was a pretty major day. had my presentation where i'll be critiqued on the what ive been working my ass off the whole half of my year two. i guess i can say im happy with it :)

although...there are THOSE stuffs. hmm doesnt matter i'll go with whatever it is. just glad ive presented what i wanted to, good enough :)

so i thought..today i'd be losing 2 friends of mine. i guess even after all these. something would be different. and i guess i have to say i wouldnt know how to face them whenever they go for the evolo competition. ohwell. for some of the stuffs.. i dont understand why was it that way but im gonna try not to bother bout it.

went off cos again, not able to face that, left and headed to town to meet mom and sis to get my phone and card done stupid things failing on me. ohwell. so yeah. anddddd i totally forgot to meet itiel -.= sorry!! phone died and i was with family so i kinda......forgot. -_-

ok so yeah when i rememebered already pretty late i guess. so.. headed out from 313 to ION. my legs hurtttttttttttt. ok so..

i wasnt expecting it at all to.. actually.. see you. hah u must be wondering whats with my dressing huh..so..

yeah thanks. for that smile that was enough, and i guess there shouldnt have been anything more than that, tell ya something funny. i think you will feel 'wtf.lol' -.- my sis kinda teared. when she saw you smile at me haha. i guess you know why ah ?? true enough.. its sad uh. that we went this way. but i asked her if i could call you using her phone cos my phone batt died. welllll of course she said no cos.youknowwhy. so yeah. it was...good seeing you but ..ouch. wasnt expecting to feel that way. andddddddd. yeah my sis say you handsome ah?! hahaa i agree with her you look way better with black hair and not all that ahbeng looks and clothes hahaha. but we say u'd be better with long swept-to-the-side hair. :> so hope you're okay!

space bound

2011-08-23T16:00:00.005+08:00

the feeling is all too familiar. like its happening again. i guess the fall's coming anytime soon.

its crazy how having you around changes everything.

i wish im stronger.

2011-08-22T20:03:00.002+08:00

hmm. didnt sleep again last night. i really think im at my limits. but then again archi pushes you off your limits.. so ohwell. tired as hell now all i want is to sleep but i have too much i need to catch up on for one more submissino this friday and critique next monday. dont know how am i going to do present with nothing at all. do hope my portfolio can save me some marks.

'bumped' into someone i never expected i'd meet during such a busy period. happy to see ya.

giving up.

2011-08-20T13:37:00.005+08:00

note to self : stay strong. keep calm and carry on.

honestly dont like to be deemed as that.

2011-08-16T16:32:00.002+08:00

"#ZodiacFacts A #Gemini,tendency to analyze can give them the appearance of emotional detachment."

been deemed as some girl thats really emo by my secondary school mates.. now come poly. thought could've gotten rid of that. but somehow people still think im always being emo! really dislike it? honestly i get it that im slow at stuffs, slow with understanding what you guys say but honestly doesnt mean when i dont answer you or reply you, it means im emo-ing or whatsoever.. i just stone and take the time to think of what youre saying and try to think of an answer for you. i just tend to think alot about anything.. is there really a fault in that..?

anyway..projects been getting tougher.. literally doing work non stop with no break for over a month or two already. another month more before critique and i have 2weeks of break to finally catch up with friends ive not met for a really long time. AND of course catch up with my bed and my pillow and my bolster and my sleeeeep. it feels like ive been dozing off every single night at my study table. now i know where all my neckaches and backaches are coming from. and goodness my complexion just keeps getting worst. my body just feels so drained out.

dont even know how come im actually taking the time out to blog. ohwell. back to work. meh.

everything's falling apart.

2011-08-12T22:42:00.003+08:00

tell me why.. ive not sent in a single submission where any of my work is completed this whole yr. even when i planned everything ahead and pushed myself to concentrate and finish my things up.. the work ive handed in. its... still not up to the standards. ive been breaking down every single submission.. telling myself to move on and not think bout my previous submissions... but its like every single past submission affects the next and the following.. really getting demoralised every single time i look at my work. i feel.. sick of telling myself to just keep going on. its just crazy. having to face and extra workload from whats unfinished from the previous submission. already packed up with work to do every single day. every single week theres a submission.. and this is gonna go on.. for the next week and the following and then critique on the following one.. hope i will be able to catchup and finish everything else by then..

honestly dont have time for anything/ anyone else outside architecture. have not even gone out with family for weeks. finally went out for at least a decent dinner today! after ytd's model submission. hmm. really have to thank mommy for staying up with me till 3am the past 2days.. until i feel really bad and told her to go and sleep. haha. hmm..so..feeling guilty for taking a break now. sigh. when will this end? we literally have work to do every single day. there's no stop at all. even when the holidays come. its a 2 week break. where i have so much i need to catch up on. sigh. been on the verge of giving up so much already. i dont know how did i wake up the next day to go on with it. hope i can continue to have that strength to stay on. and grow stronger each time. i know i will regret if i leave architecture because its something.. i actually do love. its just so tough.. cant wait to really take a break. where.. i dont actually have to feel like im carry a huge load on my bag. like now.. knowing each time i rest, i have alot more work and lesser time to finish em.. like everytime..i know i should be dedicating my time to finish my work.. so rushed with em that i dont even have to to refine them. all i gave is all i could do by that timing..

just like you, i wish i have that someone too. i dont know but. i miss having that someone to.. turn to.. to go to.. each time i dont feel okay.

too much.

2011-08-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

if all you want is to see me fall again, you can fuck off right now. cos you will be waiting forever for that to happen. i wont ever let myself fall that hard again.

mixed feelings.

2011-07-25T21:24:00.003+08:00

you never fail to make me smile whenever you're around, same way you never fail to disappoint me time and time and again. why do you have to be so nice for the moment, and in the next you just change into a whole other person altogether? what exactly do you want from me?

it fucking feels like im being used.

Memories hmm?

2011-07-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

not dumb lah.

screwed up.

2011-07-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

seriously, every single submission, i never fail to disappoint myself further.

always gave myself an aim, and roughly estimated around when i could complete this and that.

i actually feel excited everytime i plan my work out in my mind, and literally writing them out to remind myself bout what i want to complete by when etc.

this year especially, i really tried. i really did! i didnt even think i actually did take a day off archi work this whole year. im always reading through notes or planning out a schedule on when i wanted to start working on these and that - even wasted the 3weeks holidays on my work, barely gone out.

but i did not even complete half of what i wanted to improve on before the next sem started. went to school and got to know everyone else only started work on the last few days of the holiday and managed to finish way more than me.

it really hit me that time. i just thought, maybe im not cut out to study architecture afterall. its such a long course. and i swear its like. "working". not "studying". the amount of work you have to handle is. idk. its just really one pile of work that will always be there.

it got so bad that i just went to my dad and asked him what if i wanted to quit architecture.

we really talked. like talked through everything. Mom was there too. they just kept telling me that it was okay. that i am still a student. and that i shouldnt worry bout being perfect at these and that. there was alot more that we talked than these. that whole week i was just.. home. i just wanted to be home..

im just glad that im okay now. i know its tough, and i know im prolly one of the slowest or ok maybe the slowest among my friends. but yeah im slow but at the end of the project, i always produced something i gave my best shot at.

hoping i can get through this year 2 well. if my gpa...isnt enough to pull up my total gpa for my 3years... i guess i'll retake year2. i honestly dont mind going through the same shit again. better then having it worst if i fail to do extremewly well in year3 and end up not pulling through to uni.

i know it sounds absurd...but yeah. dont want to disappoint anyone nor myself.

thank god for my parents who helped me through. without them i'd prolly went back to my old habits and did stupid stuffs.

love you mommy daddy,

im sorry.

2011-07-18T12:07:00.001+08:00

i miss you. i really do.

by chance?

2011-07-03T18:48:00.002+08:00

hmm i dont know why but i guess maybe it really is better that things stay the way they are now.

uhhh.

2011-06-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

lol OK SERIOUSLY. i needa cheerup man. no one's gonna really be there. i've gotta stand up on my own and stay strong uh! hahaha this is sort of.. embarassing but. watching taemin makes me happy. never fails to cheer me up :>

ohwell.

2011-06-20T20:24:00.002+08:00

haha. whats with my previous post.. so..emotional like that. reminds me so much of my past.
hmm having even thought back.. i guess i really dont deserve to even feel anything more than just friends.. for anyone else, or even be with someone new right? haha...
i just hope everything's gonna be okay. main thing now is studies uh. i have so much to catch up on. architecture is literally like piles and piles of work waiting to be finished. but no matter how much you do, that'd still be so much left to do.

`-undestinedFATE

let my mind wander off for abit...

just wondering

urrr craving for blazers now.

"back in Italy" - #nowplaying - Rome by Phoenix

i hate this stage - making choices

relieved.

dontjudgeme.

-.-

all too familiar.

uhhhhhhh.

please god make this work (II)

wah -.-

#nowplaying Four Seasons (Winter) - Vivaldi

#now playing - Nice guys - Kev, Chester, Ryan

#nowplaying - Beside You - Marianas Trench

you never fail to make me question myself, everyday.

just choose.

Rollercoaster feelings.

what is, what isn't.

you think this is what i want?

There won't be another time.

12hours

for what's worth.

please god make this work.

stop putting these negative thoughts in your head.

a new year ahead just doesn't make any difference.

2012

Agyness Deyn.

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ugh

これらのチョコレート~

ちょうど私に少し時間を与えてください!

#nowplaying - Just A Boy - Angus & Julia Stone

You were the last person i thought would do this to me

The Edge of Love

gosh.

シエルの子守唄

#randomthoughts.

im fine: にんたい

mmm. ive got a confession. im super afraid of dentists.

...

人生には浮き沈みがあるものだ。

:'(

memories, memories.

happy birthday, ... friend?...

しつぼうする

can we?

What now? :(

"if they don't it means they dont care:)"

its been so long.

...

if you had taken notice, you would have known earlier.

ive realised so much.

48hours without sleep.

3AM IN THE MORNING CADDING

to the person who has been there for me these few weeks (II)

limits...

why isnt anything getting any better?

try harder try harder try harder

Kaew & Tomo

to the person who has been there for me these few weeks.

random post.

i wonder if this is starting afresh.

till then, i hope to be a better someone.

#foreverlikethis.

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adapt. #geminis

happy birthday to ya

#sotrue.

time is all i need, i hope.

Déjà vu

i need to try harder than this.

i just miss my ....friend..(s)..

if only words could easily be put into action.

THIS IS TO YOU MARCUS

no matter where i go,

times like this..

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